So when you are at work you aren't allowed to read? You aren't allowed to do other things to occupy your mind? Yes, the downtime at work is EXACTLY the time I am talking about that you sit and wallow in the mire of your sitch.

Maybe it will take a career change. I don't know what it like to be a firefighter, but I would think you you can do things on the downtime to keep your mind occupied.

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