Steve, you've told me this more than once and i appreciate your persistance, I have told you more than once if i could not "Drive myself nuts" I would. Do you think i WANT to dwell on this like this?
And I've persistently told you that you have wayyyyyyyy too much down time to dwell on it. You need to find activities to occupy your mind and thoughts. You've mentioned some kind of game playing. Do you have video games you can immerse yourself in? Are you a runner? Go for a run! Get busy. I've often said (maybe too you) that you should get self-help books, relationship books, and read them. This helped me immensely would I would start to spiral like you were doing earlier in this thread.
The thing is that anyone can sit and wallow and they play the victim and say "I can't help it". Or you can be the alpha dog that takes the bull by the horn and says "I'm going to drag myself out of this!" That is what GAL is about. That is what staying busy is about.
When you sit and stew then yes you can't get your mind off of it.
Good luck man, yes all of this advice that we give here is easier said than done. Again, we care about you and that is why we try to help you.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018