Firstly. F**K You. you built me up to smash me down. you know what would happen before we even got married, so why ruin both our lives over it? why the F**k didn't you just tell me you didnt want to be married to me? Why put our son through all that? You took his home away, you took his room away, you destroyed his development and all for what? so you could feel some butterflies again that are going to die just like they do everytime? How Effing selfish can you be? to put your need into action before even THINKING of what it would do to effect your son, who you claim "Is your world"? What a load of BS, the only world you have is your own, and that world revolves around you.
I have come to the conclusion that you are sick, and damaged, and that isnt your fault. You were broken, just like you broke me, and it isnt fair to hate you because of something you couldn't control, like your abusive father and your sycophantic mother.
However, you are an adult, a mother and you were my wife. For all your fantasizing about a perfect marriage you sure had some piss poor ideas about how to be in one. Youll never have your fariy tale, becuase it is simply that, fiction. Real love isnt what you are constantly chasing, if you had stuck around long enough, you could have felt what real love really was, but you didnt, because you cant wait. You are a little child, a spoiled little girl who will never grow up.
Its sad, even Peter Pan eventually realized it was time to grow up and go home. Im sorry you never will. Im sorry you will never truly know love, or even how to love your son. Im sorry someone else did this to you, I am sorry you will continue to do this to other people until you truly run out of targets, then you will be perpetually alone. That is sad and pitiable. But you knew better. you planned all this, you schemed, you lied, you manipulated and you messed up. You got caught before you were ready and the bomb you were building blew up in your face. Im not sorry about that, you deserved it. OM deserves whats coming to him too, because i know you cant help yourself and you are going to destroy him too, then the next one, and the next one and so on until you are a sad lonely creature.
Im sorry you are what you are. Im sorry someone made you that way. Im sorry i ever met you. Im sorry you have to live like this forever. Im not sorry you'll never be able to do this to me again.
I hope you heal. I hope you seek help. I hope you see the error of your ways.
M: 35, EX-W: 3, S:4 All Divorce Proceedings Complete - Oct 18 ----------------------------------------------------- 2nd EX - Was Engaged - Diagnosed BPD 2 Major breakups. 2 Rebounds
