Your post resonated with my Cil, esiecialky the part about being fed up of trying to not think about H. Sometimes our energies are misplaced and cause us more pain.
I'm with you on the dating front to. I'm not divorced yet but my friends keep telling me it's been long enough so I should start dating. In my heart I have not let H go so I don't feel I can but I can't tell them that. I have coped on my own for two years so I definitely don't need a man to take care of me. Maybe some male companionship for outings etc. but in this world I realise that this often comes with strings soI steer well away!
Take care. X
Me - 47 H - 45 D-16 M - 6 years Separated - May 16
Don't leave me behind can't you see me I'm shining... (Years & Years - 'Shine')
