SBJ.......thanks for the reply. Sometimes I don’t feel very strong, sometimes I feel like I’m going to break! I do often wonder if this is a man that I really want to keep on trying to love????
Just doing some journaling.......
Well, the weekend went by and I survived it. Saturday was our 12th anniversary. H spent 90% of the day away from the house. I was keeping myself busy away from the house as well. We ended up returning home within an hour of each other. I asked him if moving forward he would be willing to communicate in regard to when he would be leaving and coming home, so that we know if one of us would be around to feed the dogs. He said that moving forward he would communicate with me better in that regard. He ended up apologizing to me for his lack of communication.
We touched on a few things briefly, but I did ask him if he wanted me to move out. He started off his response by saying he has intentionally put space between the two of us. So after hearing that I have made my decision that I will be moving out. I don’t want to be in the home with him if he is intentionally trying to distance himself for me.
Sunday I needed to run errands and asked him if he wanted to come..... he agreed.....I was very surprised he wanted to come with me. We ended up spending a few hours looking for some things that I will eventually need in my new place. I mentioned to him that I was hungry and was going to head home. He suggested that we should go to a restaurant that both of us really enjoyed. We actually had a nice time, and nice conversation. He offered to pay .........his debit card got denied!!!! I didn’t say anything or react. He then offered up a different card and that was accepted.
This morning he was distant again, but did let me know when he would be home from work. When he got home he asked me if I wanted to go eat somewhere with him, but I declined.
I’m trying to make sure that whatever conversation we have is pleasant, even though there are times when he is rude, and I just roll my eyes (he doesn’t see me do that). The past several nights he has made sure to come to my room to tell me goodnight. Weird because a few days before he wasn’t even speaking to me.
I just wish he would pick a mood and stick with it so that way I know how to respond!
