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[Jim1234]

Thanks, Nicole.

J9, you always seem to have it together, and it helps to know you dealt with the same things.

bhappy, I went for a long walk (beautiful day yesterday), sat outside on my patio and read my book, and when my kids came home, spent time with them. Today, though, I need to be more responsible... pay bills, do yard work, etc.

I couldn't sleep last night.... combination of jet lag, and going over my situation. I am weakening, thinking of asking her to reconsider before everything is finalized, even though I know it's a terrible idea. In my head, I went over how to tell her, admit my shortcomings as a husband, promise to open my mind to understand her needs and try to meet them, and ask her to do the same. This morning, I'm still miserable, but probably not going to bring it up to her because I suspect it wouldn't do anything.

I am struggling, though, with something. Communication is key to a good marriage, yet I probably shouldn't communicate the above thoughts. It seems counter intuitive.

I'm just rambling, I guess....