Husband gone for second time - 4

[bluesun]

I haven't posted our story yet. There is so much to it. Be fore warned it will be a novel in size. Will soon.

As for how do I do it, I barely do. Patience is key. I have faith in my H, in our M and in our friendship. I often feel like giving up..on everything. But I know if we can get through all this chaos/confusion that the prize at the end is worth it. At the same time I am open and accepting of the outcome, good or bad. Well, this week anyways haha.
My Dad went through a mlc when I was a kid. My Grandpa died when my Dad was in his early 30s and it sent him into major depression and mlc. The outcome was my parents are together and celebrated their 50th a few years ago. I have a half sibling from that chaos and remember my Moms strength through it. I know it can work out positive. I myself also went through a mlc when I was 30 (I am now 43) which was triggered by a major health issue. Experience is knowledge I guess. These roller coaster rides suck, I prefer the ferris wheel.