Job and HaWho -- I will write more later this week, on a deadline and just back in town after a weekend away so I am picking up the pieces! But wanted to tell you both thank you so much for taking all that time to give me advice. I am printing it out and will read it many times over til it sinks in. Will write more later.
HaWho -- my H is rarely home during the day, he is exercising many hours and when schools is in session he teaches as an adjunct (leaving almost 5 months a year when he is not working at all) and always works on his dissertation (for ten years now, he started over with new topic at BD). I am not sure if there is an A going on but the other one went on for a long while and no doubt took a lot of his time. My H has not contributed to the finances or helped with the work of our house or rental business since BD. He stopped working at our other biz as MLC intensified and was just taking money from it but not helping; but then I finally sold it to end that misery. I will write more later about your other questions/ideas. Thanks again for taking the time to write to me! I have read some of your threads too and we do have some things in common for sure.
I believe I will see the bounty of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord with courage. Be stouthearted, and wait for the Lord.