My New Scenario

[Newly20]

It's been a while that I've posted. This week our interactions have been light, a bit of talking but its all strictly business. I have now mentioned anything about the on-going divorce, nor has she brought it up. I'm still taken by the fact that she didn't mention beforehand. I thought for sure she would tell me that she was set on it and was going to file. Not sure what to make of this.

So onto myself, this week was busy with work, finally got around to working full shifts and even some overtime. This tremendously helped me as i love my job, and working longer hours helped keep my mind off my sitch. However, not sure if i want to keep up with this OT due to the fact that i can have a child support case opened up. We have a verbal agreement in place currently, but i do not know who is in W ear.

As time progresses i do find that the sadness dissipates. I was so down on the loss of the family, how W could just walk away from all the "lifelong dreams" we talked about. We were high school sweethearts so I'm not sure if this comes into play. The fact that she no longer wants to work on the marriage, she no longer feels those butterflies and thinks the grass is greener on the other side. Are WAW really that naive? All marriages have ups and downs, but rather than work on it she chooses to just walk away, not only hurting Us, but our little D3. i feel great disappointment in today's younger generation. "When something is broken, you fix it. You dont throw it away and buy another." That's how i feel, maybe I'm more of an old school type of guy.

This thought alone has me feeling anxious. I know i should focus on today, but cant help but think into the future and wonder if there is another woman with the same thoughts as myself. Someone who is gonna fight the battle and not another person who is going to throw in the towel at the first rough patch we go though.