Hi Everyone, it may take a few attempts to get caught up but starting with New2Nev's message on April 29th:
New2Nev - thanks for taking the time to share those comments. I agree with them all so there's not much to say in response except my husband was upset about the consulting position because the rate isn't as high as his as a physician, although it's still well above average. I think my husband is angry due to guilt and because my daughter and I are still a burden or barrier to my husband's freedom. Who knows.
Vanilla, in response to your message from 29/4 (as you'd write it in the UK), no, of course I don't want to be plan b or be married to a serial cheater. I'm aware that there are endless OW in the world. It's not quite so easy though since we have a daughter and need to cooperate together for years to come while she grows up, not to mention how much I invested in my husband's career and into bringing his family here. We also had a lot of wonderful times together too. He was never even remotely abusive until he left the first time and even then it depends on how you categorize abuse. I'd say neglect and indifference are the most accurate words followed by verbal anger at being 'trapped' by marriage.
Steve85, there are lots of men out there but there are only a handful in my life that appealed to me and I only had one long-term relationship before I met my husband that started out as friendship. I never went on a 'date' in my life. In my husband's country dating is forbidden. So I have no idea how I'd meet someone especially considering when you have kids you can't just move anywhere you like so it would have to be someone close by and fit a number of other criteria. It seems like such a remote chance and risk to think of someone new. I just can't imagine anyone else....
Arsh18, how are you doing lately? I haven't seen any updates from you. Yes I'm trying to get through each day and hope you are as well.
