Can I really do this #2

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Sandi,
No she does not have that. She has chronic pain from 2 spinal surgeries creating debilitating erosion that will just get worse over time. She has had her thyroid taken out which is a roller coaster in and of itself between the hyper and hypo scenarios and keeping the medication adjusted to keep her level. There is also a serious IBS issue that has been going on for about 8 months now. So chronic pain, chronic IBS (either total constipation or chronic diarrea (sp?). Add in the thyroid stuff and all the medications and yes, it is a pharmacy at our home. I know the pharmacists on a first name basis! Trying new stuff here and there, the opiods she has been on for a decade (trying to wean off of those but don't know how she will totally be able to do that with the pain issue) She has tried and sometimes still does CBD and/or medical mmj very sparingly. I am very anti drug, but I would rather have something to give her relief that is natural than something with 7 pages of side effects. Overall just a cluster of issues.

Example is presently she is in hypo. Her last endo doc (thyroid) retired so her primary is doing it until she finds another one. Messes with her appetite really bad. She doesn't eat much anyway (a little on the vain side, but I would say not in a bad way, just always has been concerned about taking care of herself, eating right and all of that.) So she is not eating anything really. Yesterday she had a paleo pancake and a banana. She also can't sleep due to the hypo thing so she gets up at 3-4-5am. I have NO idea what she does during the day, no job, etc. but unless the laundry is done, the house is clean or something noticeable, I have no idea. She is generally still in the same clothes she got up in. Also doesn't take her shower until I get home and gets immediately into her pajamas for the evening. Lately she crashes around 4-5 for an hour or 2 nap.

When she does have energy, unfortunately her nature is to do everything she can. She frantically will clean the house, workout, make a great dinner, etc. which will lead to her being just torn down for the next 2-3 days.

Her primary dr is trying to get her thyroid in order so he is having her skip one dose every other week. The last time she did this was 2 weeks ago tomorrow. So she skipped on Saturday and on Sunday, she got up at 5, asleep on the couch for 3 hours, got up and went upstairs and took a nap for 4 hours, then moved back downstairs to watch tv then back up at 7pm to go to bed. truly a wasted day. Well today she is skipping it so tomorrow should be a totally done day for her.

As I had suggested before, it is not totally out of the realm of possibilities for her to be in a PA. I would lean more on the EA/close friend side as all of these issues have made her very isolated over the last several years. Also, for what it is worth, she totally hates men, period. I used to be the exception. Her past dictates that way prior to me.

I know this is way more detailed than you wanted, but hopefully that gives you some insight into the major issues that she is dealing with. There are others, but I don't know how she is ever going to manage this by herself, with a job, 2 kids, etc. etc. etc. I don't want to be Plan B. If she doesn't choose to be with me for the right reasons, please move on.

Thanks again, Happy Friday and I thank you so much for your interest in my situation and my family!