update- I had a good interview - they want to schedule a second interview with more of the team for next week. I think it went pretty good. Came home and S seems depressed and does not want to do anything. Tried to get to walk the dog with me, Practice his pitching, or go grab something to eat- he says he doesn't fell like doing anything. Most of her stuff is gone but W wanted to come back later today to get the rest of her things on the kitchen table. I'm pretty sure she saw that I was not myself. hard to be positive when it feels like the final nail in the coffin. I tried to put some things that were left out by W away but feel as if I am in haze and cannot think straight.
Kinda feeling battered and defeated. W has not pushed for any separation agreement in a while- makes me wonder whats up, when she was adamant to have it done before she moved out.
How do you keep moving forward when you feel you just got run over by a car and now it seems there is a steady supply of transport truck directly in front of you. the light at the end of the tunnel is an oncoming train.
In all my daily spiritual readings- the statement that keeps that seems o stand out most is " have faith- Trust in the Lord". I guess this is what I have to do now.. for I am a believer ..
M51 w50 T-20Yrs M-16Yrs S15- mad at W for not trying and giving up 1 Awesum dog BD 10/31/17 separate rooms 02/08/18 wife moved out 05/17/18
