Is this really happening?

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Please don t call him. I journal letters to my H and never send when I am feeling tempted. Learning to actually take care of you value yourself and self respect yourself is tough when all these years we put H on pedestool.
I find walking 3 miles or more a day helps me, making future plans/goals with friends and going to bed same time every night helps too.
Respect yourself respect his wishes and when he calls just be calm and up beat even if it s finding the smallest thing during the day to be happy about.
Love yourself have faith that this process will be a learning growing lesson that makes you the best you ever.
Do not lose hope however remember needy isn t attractive nor being a doormat.
I m at 3 months now and know a quick fix isn t gonna work so I choose to work on me and thank god that there are people in my life to enjoy.
I definitely have down moments still but I then make a conscious choice to get up get dressed and do something positive for myself like walking on doing my hair and make up or play with my dogs.
Your are worth it!