OK, good job with the honesty. You know what, it is ok to miss her! Obviously you miss the her you knew prior to your MR problems. We get that. But there is nothing wrong with missing your spouse.

For the 2 months my wife was completely checked out of the MR I missed her, even though she was here physically. Like I've said in the past, sometimes being around them physically is worse than being separated! Those 8-10 weeks felt like years.

But this is why I try to caution you when you are on one of your highs and saying how much better off you are without her, etc. This is an emotional roller-coaster. And that is why you have to try to keep your mind occupied. One of my coping mechanisms was to read and listen to any material I could on anti-divorce, or coping with a WAS. I highly suggest you go to youtube and watch and listen to videos from MWD and other experts. It can really help out in these kind of moments.

Stay strong my friend!

M(53), W(54),D(19)
M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017
Ring and Piecing since March 2018