That is generally how it is in these types of sitches. It's quite normal and ordinary. I feel sad saying that because I understand the pain. I have felt it.
It is bitter sweet to know and to say this is completely on queue.
You get in shape for you not to prove a point to another. Do it for you because it makes you the person you want to be.
Be the best you can be for you.
And autopilot is fine, in fact better than fine, it's what you want to be. GAL as much as you can. Why? Because it helps you to change state, even if it seems 'flat'. I recommend music too anything which lifts your heart and mood.
The best way of getting through this phase is just to keep on going. That's all you can do. Head in the direction you want to go. Set yourself a few small achievable goals.
I Internet promise it will improve
Hugs
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW
