Things moving fast. Twists & turns.(hoosjim's 15th

[hoosjim]

So, latest worry (though perhaps just me overanalyzing(?): She may be TOO worried about losing me.

Clings on to me really close when we are out, either holding hands or holding on to my arm. When I cuddle up to her at night, she grips me really close, really tight and says things like "I just don't want to think about being without you." She continues to be very apologetic and deferential... "Sorry I hurt you...etc." and still cries fairly regularly when saying such things. Most noticeably, doesn't get impatient or angry with me, even a little bit, even at times when she CLEARLY should, like when I forget to do something important I promised to do (I used to do this a lot as the "old me", but the new me is a much improved version... but I ain't perfect.) Also, is hesitant to voice disagreement with me, even on issues I know she disagrees, such as handling the boys.

Don't get me wrong, the attitude shift from rebellious ggw is welcome but... I want a partner not a subordinate. I have come around a lot to the "dominant male" mindset, and W seems to respond, but you can have that, IMO, and still have a cooperative partnership as a marriage. I also am a little concerned that if that mindset continues in her, it will not be healthy for the MR. I recall something my pastor said at a service I attended not too long ago concerning relationships in general, and about one of the important philosophies being "I will stay", meaning that in order to have a fully open, honest, and fulfilling relationship, both parties need to know that the other one "will stay", even if the going gets rough. Pretty sure W right now still is not convinced that I "will stay." Might be tougher for her to be honest and work through the tough stuff unless she believes I will.

Or maybe im just looking for reasons to wring my hands.