Afraid of the dark

[Ste7e]

Day #10 well thanks to all of you I made it through yesterday without breaking or reaching out to W.
I woke up in a bit of a funk but it soon lifted, I went to see my shrink and did not talk about W but talked about my previous disasterous relationship which was really helpful to see some of the root problems I was carrying over on my part in the MR. In addition I was able to unpack that I had gone through some serious trauma before meeting my W. Starting to see some emotional 180s I need to make.

Went to see my tailor and she almost had a heart attack she was talking to me for about a minutes before she recognized me she about fell over! She said I looked amazing and was half my size. She asked how W was and I told her we were separated and she was really sad as she helped us with all our wedding attire and we would go see her monthly to get stuff we thrifted hemmed and such. She said that she just couldn't understand it as we are so perfect for one another and that no matter what I shouldn't give up and that I was looking so good how could I lose. She said she would be praying for me which I honestly believed.
The sentiment was really nice and her not recognizing me made me feel like a million dollars!