skm, you are stronger than you think, but this battle is going to take much longer than any of us really knows.
You say he desires words of affirmation...I know how hard it is to affirm someone when they are doing their best to tick you off. Maybe you can only affirm the little things like..."you fix the best coffee", "you always keep your truck so clean", "thank you for working so hard". These little things might not mean that much to you, but to someone that craves it it might be huge.
Vince Gill has a song that's titled "It's Hard to Kiss the Lips". It has a line that says, "It's hard to kiss the lips at night, that chew your @ss all day long". I know it's hard to be nice to or want to love someone that doesn't deserve it or that doesn't want you to, but that is what we signed up for when we made that covenant with them. For now it is the fake it until you make it kind of things that will push us thru the BS.
You are and have been in my thoughts and prayers. I don't post much personally any more, but I am following along. God bless!
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Me 49 W46 T25 M22 S22 D18 S13 W had EA Apr-Jul 2016 Dropped Bomb 7/9/16 ILYBINILWYA HER DIVORCE IS FINAL...8/18/17 Dropping the rope to SURVIVE & THRIVE!!!