OK, brother, you are in denial about your feelings. It is hard I know. Your head says "I want respect and I don't want her anymore!" But your actions speak differently. The subconscious is a strange thing. Likely deep down you are willing to take any bone she is willing to throw you. And I get it. You never got to properly detach then the TRO got slapped on and iced you out. You have a lot of unresolved feelings and I am sure that on an hour by hour basis you aren't even really sure how you feel. But sandi and Ginger are telling you what your actions said, whether or not you intended them to say that. You'd be very wise to keenly reflect on that.
Stay strong brother, I know it is tough.
M(53), W(54),D(19) M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017 Ring and Piecing since March 2018
