Congratulations on your pregnancy. This is a really joyful wonderful time and try to focus on bringing a new life into the world. Do you have family and friend support right now? There have been other pregnant posters on here. Cherry and T1024 I believe. Maybe someone can link? I cant from phone.
Take up meditation. There are some great apps. It will help.
You will definitly get through this. We all know how much it hurts. We all know the pain and suffering that occurs when in Limbo like this.
But here is the thing. You are the one in control. You get to control how long limbo lasts. You get to make the decision of when enough is enough and you want your life back.
I know it is hard to hear this, but would you ever date or move in with a man that left his pregnant wife? I for sure would not. I would think he is the scum of the earth. I would not trust him. I would not view him as a prize. I would see him as irresponsible and selfish. He might be giving lingering hugs. But thats easy for him. His actions are really, really, really bad. Like special section in dantes inferno bad.
You have lost nothing of value. You are gaining a baby though and that is the best absolute best gift in the world.
Its hard to come to terms with the issue that sometimes we just really didnt know who our spouses were at the core.