Awkward situation closing act

[Tate]

Looking at houses, making lists of assetts, going through the motions of divorce, but I still do not believe this is what my wife really wants.

I know what everyone is thinking...Tate is in denial.

Maybe, but hear me out. So my W asked me to get together to list assetts. I told her I have a list already. She asked me for thevlist to which I nicely suggested she make her own list so we can see the things we each forgot. She got mad and insisted I stop wasting her time making a list if I already have one. I again suggested she make a fresh list. Her response became something like...this is why we dont get along, if you are asking why I filed for D, this is why.

So, my W is upset, but more importantly, she is NOT indifferent. A wise friend of mine stated this today...the opposite of love is not hate...its indifference. My wife is not indifferent to me or us.

This got me thinking...my wife has never had a chance to miss me, us, or the kids. Would there be value in me delaying our mediation scheduled for next week, getting kicked out of the house via temporary orders just to force a separation? I dont really see a downside to doing this.

And to those who will respond, GAL, do it only for you, work on yourself...well, this would be a good way for me to continue doing this. As I mentioned, I went out with a new friend Saturday while my aw was out if town with the kids. I felt *awesome* the next day. In fact, after my family returned in the evening, I put on a headset, listened to good music, and made some new life playlists as I called them. Later tgat evening, my wife stopped me, looked at me strangely, and said, "youre acting strange." ...and I was for me...and I felt great.