The distancing thing is hard on my heart but I can do this! I now let my son hang up the phone instead of me taking it to say a few friendly words with my husband at the end of their nightly bedtime calls.

Yesterday he texted me a little while after their call to wish me happy mothers day and told me that he feels like a dirt bag saying it considering the circumstances of his actions but he wanted me to know that I'm a great mom. I thought about it and just gave a polite "thank you" in reply and left it at that.

Today he came over and I was prepared to go out to go to some shops and kept my small conversation with him ONLY about our son although he was worried when I said I had cleaned up glass and blood from where I dropped a jar and cut my foot so to be careful in the kitchen. I avoided his questions on my foot by just saying that our son is fine and all the glass is cleaned up. When I came home after our son was in bed I was talking on my phone with a pal and when I came upstairs he looked a little upset and was rubbing his eyes. I did not ask if he was alright, I just thanked him cheerfully when he told me that he gave our son his bath and got his lunch ready for the next day. He then sighed and said he was going to come by tomorrow night as he was prepping to leave. I said alright and then headed upstairs to go say goodnight to my kiddo as my husband finished getting his shoes on to leave. I did not walk him to the door as I normally do. I looked out the window as he was walking away and noticed he was walking like he had the weight of the world on his shoulders.

I'm proud of me for being strong and not feeling sad for myself as he left. I wish he'd be over this MLC and come home but I just cant take this roller coaster ride anymore and I need to take care of me and my boy.


Last edited by Cadet; 05/14/18 03:56 PM. Reason: threads merged
Together for 13 years, married for 8.
H is 46
I'm 40
S is 6
Bombdrop in April 2018
Still in limbo as of 2019