Afraid of the dark

[Ste7e]

Thanks for the encouragement I am just in a real time breakdown ugh.
Yeah I accept the need for logistic contact and need to learn to take longer to respond.
Wish I was as calm and collected as you Davide I come and go out of it. I have yet to have a single good day but I have had a number of half days so that's worth something. But half days aren't a lighthouse, I guess I question being a lighthouse as my WAW is so calm collected and robotic about this whole thing that how can I be a lighthouse when she doesn't need it? She has a "process" that she is doing in relation to all of this.
After reading the detachment thread and some MLC threads I had a shocking realization that she might be doing all these things to me. But somewhere along the way she just stopped caring about wanting to be with me in the end.

LH19 you nailed it on the head and was something I needed to hear. When you say let her go do you mean if she comes back around or right now? Also what do you mean by strong actions?

Also can anyone talk to me more about the pros and cons of going Dark and NC