I feel your pain man. I do. I empathize with you so much since we have such similar situations. I want nothing more in this world than to reconciliate with my wife as well. It broke my heart when she told me in no uncertain terms that she wouldn't be there when I move back in, in August, and that she didn't want to be married anymore. It is a brutal kind of pain.
But neither of us can control our wives. Neither of us can make them love us again or make them want to reconcile. Only they can do that. The only thing we can do is take care of ourselves, work through our own issues, be the lighthouse and be in a better position for a future relationship with our W's or anyone else. I also feel like by not reaching out to my W, I am letting the relationship slip away a day at a time. But the truth is, our W's are already gone (emotionally if not yet physically). Holding on tight is not going to bring them back - we already tried that.
Hang in there. Keep posting here. You can do this.
W 34 Me 42 Married 7 years together 8 0 kids 1 beloved dog BD 4/6/2018 I moved out 4/7/2018 I moved back in alone 8/05/2018 I file 3/06/2019 D official 5/7/2019
