OK, it is different if you don't want it. But your "there is no hope of it ever happening" is just not true. I know you are at a low point, but read sandi's rules again. I believe #37 is NEVER GIVE UP!
I do want it, but not what I would truly get. I would get my old R back, which if you had asked me weeks ago, i would have said thats what i wanted, but i respect myself more than that now to go back to the same old. I would entertain the idea of Recon under very certain circumstances, but if you know how damaged my WW likely is, its just not going to happen that way. Who knows, maybe in 4 years ill be on here like ItHurts, not holding my breath tho.
M: 35, EX-W: 3, S:4 All Divorce Proceedings Complete - Oct 18 ----------------------------------------------------- 2nd EX - Was Engaged - Diagnosed BPD 2 Major breakups. 2 Rebounds
