My ex wasnt a good partner. I think new guy is pretty good. But i am taking it slow. He texts every day. Seems to be a loyal, one woman man. Wants someone to grow old with. Not the frat boy personality which my ex was. He is home at night and seems to like to take on responsibikities, caring for others. Which is opppsote of my ex. NG is a single dad. Got less help then me. So that was a characteristic i really liked. I am confident he is not a secret alcoholic or drug addict.
I am pretty aware that I wont see the negatives for a while though. Just like he wont see mine. I dont know if he has secrets that i wouldnt even know to look for. Like my ex's hidden stuff.
I am aware that i am not as secure about myself as i was whem i was younger. I think its from my ex's opinion of me and ability to discard me so easily. It shouldnt make a difference. But it does.
I am still coming to terms with the fact that ex's actions and neglect and discardment are about him not me. Its what i keep trying to get through to newcomers. But cant get through to myself on a deeper level.
