Afraid of the dark

[Ste7e]

OK been thinking about your question about is it something I need to engage in...I decided that this is not something I need to engage in and something which I do not care about. Let her figure out what to donate etc.
I guess upon going dark I did not think about how I would respond when WAW reached out to me?
It has also questioned why I am going dark...
What I have come to is that I can not focus on myself if I am focusing on interactions with WAW and it has been my experience so far that when we interact she just slam dunks me at the end and sets me back to square one.
I am done with that I am making progress on my own finding a sliver of serenity and piecing my own life back together.
I also have read all of Sandi's threads and even though I am dealing with a WAW truth be told she acts like a WW.
I also came to realize that despite her desire to remain friends this is just something I do not want. And I guess I am resigned to hold out until she either has a change of heart or files for D and it is all finalized. From what I read by Sandi the only chance I have now is to not friend zone myself and grow a pair. Is this something I need to convey to WAW? Not holding on and not responding is a 180 for me. I do not depend on her for my happiness and if anything currently she is an impedence to said happiness (maybe how I relate to her with NGS has been an impedence for years?). I have also read the Pursuer/distancer thread and man oh man are those description spot on. Thus I will stop pursuing all together.

I came home from out of town tonight and she had moved out the remainder of her stuff but left just the box of our wedding invitations...I took it as very passive aggressive and it really hurt. I Love her dearly still and believe if she were willing to also try we could stand a real chance... but where is my self respect in this when she is just constantly hurting me. Thus I am dark and not responding. Please any advice is very greatly needed now on how I proceed.