[s]No[/s] affair, no feelings...is there hope? III

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Yes I understand, Sandi and artista...Sandi I would love to practice with role play

Okay, this morning W messaged me that yesterday "she was having a very emotional day, a whirlwind in my head."

Several hours later, she sent a long message that said:

"You going out not answering me saying you will let me know when you make it home and then not doing that was absolutely horrible for me and very disrespectful on your part. Then you go out all the time you have these new things you're doing and for what reason? To meet people, but why? Cant't you see how that would make me question your reasoning for doing that when you never did it with us but now are on your own. Its' like a stab in the f*cking heart. So yeah I was feeling an overwhelming amount of jealously, forgotensness, insecurity, betrayed, sad, mad, etc I can't really describe it or why I felt that way but it felt like my heart was being trampled and ripped out. And just your tone towards me has changed so much. Very cold almost. You calculate your words carefully to create such a barrier and treat me "professionally". And that hurts as well. Yeah I have told you how i felt and what I need and want, but it seems like you said okay and flipped a switch and it was that easy for you. And you may not think I need you but i do. So when I come to you now I get the door shut in my face and I'm left in an inferno of sadness and rejection and anger. But yet you want to stay there and "do your thing" but why? To use me? To benefit yourself? Because it's easier, financially I am sorry for how I am and who I am and that I have hurt you but as long as you are near me I cannot control how I feel and I cannot promise that I won't repeat the above described emotinos/actions. IF i did not feel/react that way it would mean I do not care about you.

Even though I have went out a couple times without you, it was still hard to do and I thought maybe it was healthy for me. But other than that I am always involving you, or going to work and coming home out of respect for you and myself. Last thing I would want is for you to be sitting there feeling what I have been feeling."

I have said nothing. Please help.