Hanging On (Saying ILY Pt. 3)

[mtb1981]

I wasn't really paying too much attention to her at the time, but the tone of her voice did have a little bit of that "uh-oh" in it. That and the fact that she asked twice makes me think that she is concerned a little bit. She sure is stubborn though. Even if she does realize that she's made a mistake, I don't think she'd do anything to rectify it. She's past the point of no return by telling all her family and friends lies about me. If she did decide to come back, she'd have to admit to them that she was full of $hit or make up a bunch of more lies to cover up the other ones. I believe she would choose the latter, but I believe even more that she'll just continue down the path she's on because she has too much pride and can never admit to being wrong...

Her fantasy world has made a huge shift in the past 2 weeks. The catalyst was getting fired from the bartending job. She rode a pretty high horse and thought that being the manager there made her something special. Got lots of attention. Late nights partying and keeping the bar open after hours for her "friends". Suddenly all that was gone. She's horribly financially irresponsible too, so even though she was making good money, she immediately spent it frivolously, mostly on drugs and clothes. Didn't save up for anything. So now she's broke, unemployed, and lost one of her main sources of attention. Goes around begging her family for money to pay her bills. Signed that lease on her new place for a year and now is struggling to just pay the power bill. Her life isn't so fantastic now, but like I said, I'm afraid she's too prideful and stubborn to admit that she screwed up. And who knows, maybe she does just hate me and has no desire to be with me. Whatever... Her loss...