Day before yesterday, W promised D she we be at her game tonight. W sent the texts in the above post today at 4:00 asking where the game was. The game was at 5:30. At 5:00, W shows up in the driveway to tell D she isn't going to make it to her game. That she had to go to her grandma's house to get money to pay her power bill. D was not upset because W ptomised she would be at the next game and take her out for ice cream and all sorts of other fantastic $hit that will probably never happen. I wanted to ask W why she couldn't go to the game and then to her grandma's house. The game was done by 6:45. She could have made it to grandma's house a little after 7:00. Could it possibly be that she wasn't going to grandma's??? Could it be that the lady she buys pills from gets her script filled on the 10th each month and it's a 45 minute drive to get there??? Who knows. All I know is she could have made it to the game if she wanted to, but all her actions show that it's just not important enough for her...

W also asked me how my appointment went. I just said fine. Then she asked if I filed for D. My reply was, "Isn't that what you wanted?" No amswer from her, the she asked, "Well, did you?". To which I replied, "Isn't that what you wanted?". Her response, "I'll take that as a yes". She then got mad and asked why we couldn't just talk and be civil. I told her I was being civil, and then told her that the kids and I needed to get on the road so we weren't late for the game...

Also, W wanted me to ask my parents to not go to daughter's game next week, because she feels uncomfortable around them. I told her, "No. You can ask them if you want to, but I doubt they will. They like supporting D and try to make it to all of her games. They really enjoy it"...

Poor W is starting to have to deal with all the consequences of her decisions, and I don't think she thought it would be like this. As she was walking back to the van, a song popped into my head and the chorus has been stuck there all night. The song Ticks and Leeches by Tool...

"Hope this is what you wanted
Hope this is what you had in mind
Because this is what you're getting"...


Me: 38
W:31
Kids: S16(mine from previous R), D10, S9, S4
M: 10 years
T:12 years
BD:Jan 3, 2018
W moved out: Apr 13,2018
Filed for D: Jun 2018
D final: Sep 2019

"Surrender to the Flow"...