My Scenario Pt.5 - Big D and Detaching the Monster

[OrangeK]

I still get the temptation to call her out on all her BS.
If I know it is counterproductive and would just be turned around to make me look bad, why is it still so tempting to do??

Still having trouble detaching. I don't MISS her like i had been, but she still occupies a lot of my head space and I still get pretty angry when hear about her or think about what shes done and what shes doing.
For some reason the thought of her with OM still drives me crazy, and i do still get jealous of him. Which doesn't make sense to me because i know i wouldn't go back to the R we had. EVER. Its either a totally new one and she has sought therapy and is healing, or nothing.
SO why the jealousy, anger?


Still miles ahead of where I was two days ago, but the temptation to try and talk some bloody accountability out of her is still strong, despite knowing it is fruitless.

I guess im just STILL in shock of how someone could marry someone, knowing they weren't invested, and blow it all to bits a few short months later.
Nothing she does makes sense.