You know I'm just really getting tired of H's games and/or his testing me or whatever his purpose maybe by saying stupid stuff like he does. It is getting very old and fast.
I met my Sis for lunch today and while I was sitting in my car waiting for her it "clicked" for me that I was making my H into a God. I was putting my expectations, my hopes, my dreams, everything into/onto my H. For days I've been trying to figure this out and was wondering why I didn't obsess about other people in my life like I do with my H. How what he says to me, how he acts can have such a dramatic effect on my moods, feelings, my feelings about MYSELF, etc. when it should not! And now it's beginning to make sense. I have much more to process and to think about, but I think I'm on my way to putting all of my trust, faith and expectations into the Lord where they should be rather than a person in my life. Oh happy day.
I did pick up a bible today at Sam's, yeah me!:) My Sis was with me and kind of was giving me a hard time about it. I asked her if she had ever read the bible and she said "yeah" but a little later changed her tune. She was brought up the same way I was, that God should be feared, was judgmental, it's the way the nuns and the priest at our school were--mean! The priest drank and was just a mean priest to be feared. Anyway, I said well when things happen in your life you gotta beleive there's something bigger out there. We didn't get into a whole detailed discussion, but I wonder if I got her thinking?
