Yes I am slowly getting it, it's trying to sink in and it's a learning process, something that will come with time. My expectations need to be in the Lord. Once I understand what that means, well I know what it means, but when you're used to looking to your S to meet your needs AND thought it was something that you were supposed to do as well as "expecting" certain things from your S...well it's really a whole new way of life. I'll get there though, it's just not coming through too fast.
This morning I opened myself up completely to my S, up until today there was something shutting off part of ME from my S. But I opened my soul to him and looked at my S as a little person with a soul and a heart--it was a connection. I've been too busy focussing on H and have been ever since this all started last year. What do I say, how do I act, detach..and all that stuff focussing on H. Maybe it's that I feel I have that down now, somewhat...that I can now look at my S and raise him as best as I can.
Otherwise not much is happening on the homefront. H got home last night from turkey hunting about 4:30. My nephew's birthday was yesterday, so S and I went out to eat with my sis's family. Invited H, he didn't want to go. Had a great time at dinner, came home and H was here. S and I went in the backyard and hit golfballs. Came in, H was in the shower, S jumped in. H went to bed without saying good night. I didn't know that he was going to bed.
Haven't seen him yet today. So nothing much is happening. I've got plans for the rest of the week, have no idea what H is up to.
