Problem is she is a WW. I've kept the A in my back pocket and it has kept me grounded in the reality that I am not on some ideal DBing road back to recon. I have taken the approach that the A doesn't really matter, I can't control it and even if it was in the open she could lie and I wouldn't be any less in the dark than I am right now. Back when I first confirmed it, you guys reinforced the idea that it doesn't change my DB approach. Now, it's becoming harder to feel that way. I feel like I'm making "progress" on some false mission and it's affecting my detachment.
44tries,
I don't have any advice, but I have to say I impressed you've made it this far and that you realize that the struggle isn't nearly over yet. Good for you! Most guys start tripping all over themselves as soon as they see any positive signs from their wives.
I suspect your "directionless" feeling may be, in part, because you're getting your b@lls back and the fog is clearing so you're starting to see your marriage from a different perspective. That's not a bad thing.
