My New Scenario

[Newly20]

A few days have gone, weekend was tough for me mainly becuase of seeing familys together and me being a "single" father. Not so much me missing the W. Then Monday comes along, i went on to work and was fine, did the usual routine of having my kiddo with me til W picked her up in the afternoon. Had the first face to face conversation with her about our daughter. For the first time since BD i think i was able to maintain eye contact with her. May not be a big deal, but for whatever reason in the past i had not been able to. Read somewhere that if you maintain eye contact it tells the other person that they have your full attention and that you are listening.

Anyhow, we just talked a bit about daughter and a couple things to check in with our baby sitter. She went on her way. Then came the dumpy feeling. After that i could not pull myself out of the slump. Couldn't get to sleep, had my alarms go off for work and i had no desire to go. Laid right back down.All these things are no good, but i rather be on my own with my feelings than to be at work and be out of it.

Ive been seeing so many new comers. Even IRL there are soo many people going through a split that its ridiculous. Why is our generation so quick to give up. Nobody wants to fight anymore, they give up at the first tough situation. This whole thing bums me out, even makes me question the future. I see all these people around me in relationships who are not even committed, a lot of cheating and unhappiness. Makes you not even want to try, question whether someone is being legit with you.