Cathy, The last thing for you to worry about is what the world thinks of you. The important thing is that you take care of you, do what you need to do and not worry about what anyone thinks of you. That is not important. Hold your head up high, Cathy, you are a wonderful person and you are not responsible for your H. Let him be.
Hang in there... maybe he will move out and give you some peace!
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.