H claims to have no childhood issues. This replay thing has been going on for well over a year, this will be about the fourth time he moves out and I don't know that I want him back.
I've about had enough and I want a chance at a happy life, too.
I'm sure he's at OW's right now telling her of his decision..at least that's where I'm assuming since he just ran to the post office over an hour ago.
I'm ready to go dark actually, no expectations, it's Cathy time. I did no wrong, H tried, but he admitted no feelings and what if they never come back? So if he leaves and I wait and he never comes back, then why should I wait. I'm tired of the games, tired of H being here putting me through all this crapp.
I'm just tired and I want a life that isn't so up and down up and down and where pain isn't a normal feeling. I want MY life back. I'm so sad and weepy and it's just not fair anymore.
