My H’s drinking has slowed down considerably these last few weeks. The last two Saturday nights that he has been out, I ASSumed that’s where he was headed, but I don’t know for sure that he is actually drinking. Usually you can smell the smoke or the alcohol on his body and clothes, but I don’t notice that. At this point I’m not ready to do anything about it either. I’m not excusing H’s behavior not making light of it, but there are people who drive drunk every day, who drive drunk all of their lives and nothing ever happens to them, nor are they ever stopped. If I did an “intervention” or something like that I don’t know that I could live with myself…I’m not ready to effect someone’s life that way at this point.
H was drinking last night, had a retirement party for a co-worker…I hope I’m not stereotyping too much, but construction workers are drinkers. H came home and of course after drinking wants to I must admit he is very loving when he's like that. Even some passionate kissing H rarely kisses me anymore while
Maybe this is just me, but I think H is thinking a little more about his behavior, that he waits till after S is in bed to come home. In the last month I think there has been only one time that S has seen him after a few.
Even the last few Saturday nights, he has COME home. I have no idea where he goes or where he's been, but he does COME home to me.
I notice that I’ve been on the BB a year come Sunday. It’ll be four months since my H moved home and almost 13 months since I started looking at who I was, what I needed to change, what I wanted to change to become a better ME oh yeah and 13 months since the bomb . Last night I was thinking about the “act as if” attitude we’re schooled in on the BB is not so much of an “act” anymore. It’s me! Wow!
I must admit he is very loving when he's like that. Even some passionate kissing 
H rarely kisses me anymore while 
. Last night I was thinking about the “act as if” attitude we’re schooled in on the BB is not so much of an “act” anymore. It’s me! Wow! 
