Here again

[WBM]

I am still getting a lot of hateful threats about L and D. I try not to engage when my W has been drinking, which is usually when these threats occur. As much as I am not on board with selling the house, my thoughts wander to moving out temporarily until we D. I don't want a D, but, I can't see that our sitch is getting any better. I saw some improvement months ago, but all of that seems to be circling the drain now. I still GAL as much as I can, but any attempts at validating her feelings are met with pure hostility.

Her new circle of friends party a lot and are very against us working on our M at all. She has surrounded herself with people that aren't very marriage minded, and will agree with her to keep the party going.

I smh at what my W has turned into. I don't even recognize her anymore. I saw a glimpse of my real W a few weeks ago, followed by her evil twin, and that cycled back and forth for several hours. It mad me sad. Sad to know that my real w is still in there somewhere.