You are all soo right, H couldn't handle it at this time. It was more about me and yes needing this at some point, but I can wait. It's like an epiphany (sp) or a light bulb moment for ME! I know the past is the past, but things I did while in high school through most of my teens and early 20's are all making sense now. I won't go into detail as I'm still processing it in my head, but it's been revealed to me for some reason, it's being shown to me at my ripe old age of 45. Why did it take so long to figure this out? Hmm guess I won't question it too much, JUST must have been the right time.

I got up at the same time as H this morning and said good morning and his response was "yeah whatever." In the past my first assumption was, and it happened this morning too I will admit, would be "what did I do wrong" or "H is mad at me for something" and then beat myself up for it. This also might be the reason I don't get up when he gets up in the morning...to avoid this type of interaction.

H was getting the trash ready to go and I was getting OJ and noticed he hadn't taken in his sandwich so I poked my head out the door and asked him if he wanted it and he looked at me like "what" H was in another world and trying to get out of the house as fast as he could, like a demon was chasing him. That was my interpretation of it anyway.

I am in a great mood today and the "whatever" response to my good morning was not about me at all and I will nto make it about me either. I think I'm back on track with this detaching, I'm going to have fun with my life!!

Cathy