I saw W today briefly at kids activity and for the first time I didn't have a small pit in my stomach. I've been trying to just pretend and act 'as if' and doing it, but there has always been a small level of anxiousness and uncertainty. Today it was all good. I went and saw my kids and admired what they did and had the regular hello convo with W without feeling anything was gnawing at me slowly from the inside - which I consider quite a victory where I am at emotionally and mentally.
M...... I have had the same issue being around XW since BD. Last week we were both at D12's game, enjoying how great she was doing. XW then came over and stood(close??) next to me and we had a real good talk about mostly kids stuff. I for the first time had zero anxiety while talking to her, i'm not sure what it was this time compared to other times we talked but I was very comfortable with where I'm at and how I now feel about her.
Originally Posted By: Maika
Again, feeling like I've reached a new zone of detachment and self-confidence and self-worth.
This is what I am trying to get to, i've got the detachment down, could still use some tweeking but I'm in a good place here. My IC has been working a bunch with me lately on the my "self worth" I am having trouble with this one. She turned me onto an author, Brene Brown, she has a bunch of Ted Talks along with a handful of books. A lot of her topics deal with vulnerability and shame, for some reason she has really hit home for me. Look her up, her books have been real helpful for me.
