Mooka, Wonder, thanks for stopping by and Laurie, I would never yell at you or anybody for being honest. I'm not sure how depressed my H is, he really never has been happy, but HE is sharing it with me for the first time. Oh he told me he wasn't happy prebomb, but I wasn't paying attention or listening to closely. He has shared more with me in the last few months than during the whole time we were married. He is being very honest about his confusion and also about not being happy.

Now is not the time to tell my H how I feel, I agree. It was more ME honestly expressing my need for love and ME admitting to myself that yes I do need and want this in my life whereas in the past I wouldn't have admitted that. In fact, I remember telling a friend of mine that I didn't need very much affection and she responded by saying "yes you do" and I didn't know what she meant.

I have been searching for love for a very long time, I just never admitted to myself or anyone that I do want to be loved. It's been a thick wall and I still need to work through some of my past and put to rest the past. The lack of affection from my parents while growing up, actually my father was always good for hugs, but at some point he stopped and I'm not sure why or how old I was either. My dad's whole side of the family are huggers and kissers...their bohemian!

So when the time is right, I will share with my H MY needs, but not now.

Tonight he asked me if I had plans for Saturday? Almost six days away and he tells me he has plans to fish and I said fine. H also told me has plans for Wednesday night. I told H i also had plans for a girl's night out Saturday night and he said "oh yeah when did you plan this and when were you going to tell me about it?" Oh I can be mysterious also!

Thanks Laurie...I'm always thinking of HB and have all her threads bookmarked, so I will find her post on I guess I shouldn't complain, I do enjoy it just as much as my H does, we just need to spice it up a little, maybe I'm getting bored...so say la veev or whatever.

Cathy