When I woke up this morning, I went to snuggle by H and he said "you're in my space" but I just layed close to him and prayed. Then H said to me, after finally getting his boat, "now that I have a boat I could care less" I can't remember what I said, but he didn't answer. I am trying to be quiet now, still. He is talking to me but only in sentences.
When he came home last night he talked to me a little bit about our S, what time S went to bed. I only answered.
He is angry, depressed big time, and everything makes him mad. He couldn't find our lawn guys business in the yellow pages today and was mad about that and said then I'll have to find somebody else won't I!
Is obsessed with my sister getting a haircut not getting a haircut. She hadn't had one for over a year, I did kind of push her towards it finally, and H asked about it again this morning. It has nothing to do with him or his life yet he seems obsessed about her hair. My sister is a little overweight, also, but hey it's her life. It just bugs my H, that if her H leaves her that would be the reason. Her H also had an A on my Sister
He's also obsessed about my brother having not having a girlfriend, not having a life. It doesn't bother me, but my H seems angry about it. My brother has his own business and is very busy, my brother also has his own drinking problem.
I bought a new coffee maker and the old one is on the counter and he says to me today "how long is that going to sit there now" I just laughed and said boy you sure aren't happy and He said "yeah that's right " and responded that he didn't have to take it out on me.
S and I just got back from a movie and H is nowhere around. The door to the garage is unlocked, this is very unlike him not to lock it.
H is on his journey, I have to believe things are being worked out in H by God.
I am watching/observing this whole thing play out. If I didn't know what I know now, what I've learned over these many months, we'd back to where we were before this whole thing started...blaming each other for our unhappiness. Oh H may still be blaming me, but I think he's realizing it's not me, just like I had to find out for myself.
