My Scenario Pt.5 - Big D and Detaching the Monster

[OrangeK]

I'm still on the fence with the D proceedings too.

Ill break it down in two ways.

Emotionally: I am not ready for this to be the end, we havent spoken, She never filed D. She said she wanted it a few times but never actually did it. I am still tempted to withdraw my entire D proceedings paperwork. I still have a motion to hold proceedings on file and pending. The Judge hasnt touched it. Dunno if he is just busy, as my other motions got processed fairly quickly, or if he is deliberately sitting on them because the May 22nd date is approaching.
When i spoke with Court today she said that could go through at any time and the May 22nd hearing would be pushed back / postponed indefinitely.

Logically: Probably best i move forward with D and let it just happen. I feel like me pulling back at this point will look like pursing / control to WW. Plus if she is as damaged as i believe she is at this point, she needs to be pared away and let to destroy her own life, without my involvement.

My heart and mind are constantly at odds about this.