Yes - I think it's good to have an idea of what you would need if the other person ever came around and wanted to recon. IC, everything ended with OM, being truly remorseful etc etc are good non-negotiables.
But, where you are at right now, you need to stop the bleeding. You're worrying about which shirt you're going to wear tomorrow when your heart is cut open.
Don't try to borrow phantom problems from the future. You have plenty right now that need your attention.
It looks like intellectually and logically you know what you need to do, but emotionally you're raw. And that's okay because your emotions always lag behind your mind. That's why GAL, NC/Dark are crucial because they help cauterize the wound and start the healing process.
My emotions are just catching up now with my mind and I am almost a year out from BD. Time and consistent action towards yourself is important.
