Vinald you posted this to Holdingon. Am reading it and thinking I maybe getting to this point with my H. H's feelings and thoughts have nothing to do with me right now, I'm just somebody to blame and I think H is losing some of his wind as I'm not "dancing" the way he likes me to anymore.
Quote: I don't believe it is you being a fixer or trying to control your husband. I think that what is happening to you is what happened to me last weekend.
You are being led to let go of everything. Do you realize what letting go of everything really is? You are not just letting go of your husband, but your future, your dreams and your past. That is a very scary thing to do. Basically, the Lord is telling you that it is now time for you to trust him completely.
He is telling you that you have been praying and asking for him to restore your marriage, heal your husband and so on. In order to do that, you have to be willing to let go of the past, the things that you know, the future that you want and everything. You are scared and rightfully so. I was scared too.
Then the Lord started to show me, that I keep trying to hang onto something that I don't want, something that I use to have, and something that I might have instead of letting it all go and waiting to see what he has for me.
When you take this step of faith that you are being asked to take, you are letting go of everything and the only thing that you have to hang onto after you do that is the Lord and his promise to you. Yes, we think that is what we have done all this time, but until you get to this point you realize that you have only let go of little things here and there. When you do this final letting go, you are letting go of everything that you have been hanging onto.
You are walking into the unknown and telling the Lord that you completely trust him. You don't have anything tangible to hang onto other then what the Lord has told you. It is like learning how to jump out of a plane.
For months you take classes and are taught how to do this. They give you as much information as they can give you and then the day comes when you have to jump out of the plane for the first time. You have to take all that you have learned and trust that it is going to work when you jump.
That is kind of what you are doing now. The Lord has been working with you and teaching you many things and now he is asking you to take that leap of faith and let go of what you are familiar with and do what the Lord has been teaching you to do.
It is very scary, but I can tell you that it is well worth taking the step of faith. For the first time in years, you will not be controlled by what your husband thinks or feels because you know that you will be alright.
You will see things that you have never seen before in a way that you have never seen them. You will have an understanding that you never had before and the load on your shoulders will be so light, you will not know what to do with yourself.
You will also have the assurance that everything is going to be alright. You won't know how, but you know that it will be fine. You will find that the worries that you once had, won't be there anymore. The way that you look at the situation will be completely different.
You will know that you know that you know. There will be know one that will be able to sway you for any reason. There is a peace that is beyond understanding and the things that you once got anxious over, won't bother you.
Take the step and trust the Lord. His hand is reaching out to you, just grab it and go for it.
Laurie
Thank you Laurie and Holdingon.
Boy KK is posing some tough questions isn't she first to me and now to you Holdingon...I read KK's last post to you.
