Advice on my Scenario Pt.4

[OrangeK]

I wish i could muster the stregth to be disgusted by her, to truly feel the way i should about her for what she has done.

If justice were served, if she hit bottom and had nobody to turn to to help, if OM Dropped her like a bad habit, or any number of other losses she couldn't cope with, i could sleep at night.
Not to get her back, but just to know she got what she earned.
To know she wont keep getting ahead for screwing people over.

i can hardly get through a day at work, it permeates all thought .
The mental images of her cheating, the thoughts of all the sweet things she sent him instead of me, im sure there were nudes and whatnot too.

im approaching a meltdown. i dont know how well ill make it through the day, and my job is on ice as it is.