Orange,
The adult population of the US is 250 million. Half of them are women. You have emotional tunnel vision. Quit chasing the one that fuched you over, get yourself together, and let one of the other 124,999,999 women come into your life and make you happy. I'm not trying to be a dick, and I understand how upset you are, but it's time to get real. You were conned. So was I. And now we have a choice. Feel sorry for ourselves, chasing answers and explanations for the behavior of $hitty people. None of which are going to make us happy or give us closure, but instead open another door to unanswered, unexplainable things. Or we can dust ourselves off, say "that sucked", and go out and grab life by the balls. Your son needs you more than ever right now, and I get it, you never planned on being a father. I never did either, and I have four kids. But guess what, you are. It's time to man up and do what deep down you know you need to do. And that's to face these problems head on instead of wanting to run away from them, and squash them into nothing. I know you can do it. And like I said earlier, I'm not trying to be an a$$hole, but trying to give you the motivation and clarity to do what I know you want to do deep down. Sorry if my 2x4 came across a bit harsh. You're a good dude, and you deserve the best. The ball is in your court now. Go out and succeed. Carpe diem, my friend...


Me: 38
W:31
Kids: S16(mine from previous R), D10, S9, S4
M: 10 years
T:12 years
BD:Jan 3, 2018
W moved out: Apr 13,2018
Filed for D: Jun 2018
D final: Sep 2019

"Surrender to the Flow"...