Advice on my Scenario Pt.4

[OrangeK]

Its all the unanswered questions, all the unresolved pains.
She left and pushed me away, wouldn't answer anything, fed me breadcrumbs, told me contradictory stuff, lied to me about things we both know i knew.

This is why i cannot let go.
there are too many open holes, too many lose ends and unanswered questions.
I feel so devalued, so worthless and hated.
I get angry about being a Dad, i never asked to, but she got what she wanted, got her fake wedding and left me to die.

Ill never not need this information, these answers.
She damaged me for life.

I am so close to quitting all of this and leaving.