Sting, Minnie,

Thanks for the thoughts. I must move forward, it's kind of hard hearing that someone doesn't have any feelings for you and makes you wonder why you're even trying. Especially if it doesn't really matter to my H..he could take me or leave me..with the flip of a coin.

I'm started detaching, have to just to keep MY sanity, looking forward without any expectations at all from H, that maybe it might be better if he did move out and on with his life. I won't ask him to move out and I don't want him to move out, but if he's not happy here then why is he staying? Just for our S?

H isn't home yet, H is more than likely drinking. I don't know how much longer I can take H running to OW, the wondering what kind of shape/mood he'll be in when/if he does get here. I guess I should just not expect him home tonight.
But, then he'll call me in the morning and blame me for everything...arghhhh.

Only God knows what H is going to do tonight and where he'll end up.

I keep praying anyway.

Cathy